Waiting for the Miracle to Come

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美方强硬的,工作狂的,认真严谨细致到变态的，经常晚上11点仍然打我电话探讨合同的代表Jeff突然想聊点别的。
“Eric,你看起来像是篮球迷”
“是 吗？有吗？真的？”
“是的，你看起来像是喜欢篮球或者打过篮球，你喜欢哪个球队”
“恩，休斯顿的，还有马刺，小牛，就是德州那几个，恩，我就是对德州有点 那个”
”德州？为什么德州？“
”恩，怎么说呢？恩，大概是音乐吧，Austin的那个SXSW之类“我注意力不是很集中，随便答道
”“你喜欢音乐？”
“是啊，我很 喜欢”听到音乐，我来了精神。情不自禁地继续说：”我搞过乐队“
他非常惊讶：”玩什么乐器，我看你，像是鼓手“
”是啊，呵呵“
”你喜欢什么音乐类型？“
我彻底来了精神，说”我最喜欢Blues,“
他很惊讶：”我也喜欢Blues，难怪你喜欢德州，你也喜欢芝加哥吧"Jeff很兴奋。“Eric,你有IPOD?，我马上给你拷些好东东，lightnin hopkins，howlin' wolf，T-Bone walker，blind willie mcTell之类的，哎，我喜欢的死掉太多了，现在出了好多新人，你也想听吗？你喜欢哪些Blues歌手"
"我喜欢Buddy guy,muddy wates,allman brothers,EC,对了,那个坠机的德州吉他手叫什么？”我一直号称自己爱这个人，我一时都忘了他名字。
“Stevie Ray Vaughan！Eric,你听Soul吗”。
我相不出听Blues的人也会听“骚灵”,回答到"soul is too beautiful for me，i like Rough stuff，"
Jeff大笑:“也就是很far"。
我回答：”不错.“."对了,Jeff,你在哪里出生成长？”
"费城“
”呵呵,让我想到Bruce Springsteen和那部汉克斯,华盛顿那两个老装逼分子的电影“
"你也是影迷？”Jeff居然很惊讶
我心里想，是不是因为一个ZF里的人就应该不是篮球迷，不听根源Blues，也不看美国电影？是因为他觉得我很非典型？
之后是他作为一个共和党元对Obama的抨击，对他诸多政策的一一批评。听得我头晕目眩。
突然我想到Jeff1980年就到北京留学,突然想到一个事情，想一想，还是问了句：June4th你在哪里。
他瞪大眼睛：HK，你呢？我初一。
之后是限制级话题，狂谈，畅谈。

刚才突然想到“非主流”，有点小思考。90年代，非主流是褒义的形容音乐类型的词，汉语意思和alternative music一致（alternative被莫名其妙翻译为“另类”）。其实非主流在西方就是subculture/counterculture（亚文化/反文化）,是一种 和资本主义体制/主流文化对立的价值观，此类人群不但有文化，还有独立思想和品位，很褒义，可在中国异化成形容90后脑残

昨晚电影院看屈伏塔和华盛顿老师的《地铁惊魂》，观众大概20人的样子，有观众在全程聊天，也有小孩子哭着喊妈妈，这多少有点让人丧气，不过 电影很精彩。双雄片自然都是狂飙演技的惯例，虽是remake,但有了e时代元素。音效和配音演员近乎完美，但台词译制是小灾难，有不少小问题：如果说把 ass model（臀模）译成手模还情有可原，但yankee（纽约洋基棒球队）译为美国队，实在是what the F

三号去了江阴，在城区转了一圈。 五号去了千年古镇姜堰溱潼，南宋时的泰州知州岳飞，曾驻兵之地。去了十里溱湖，那是中国十大民俗节庆之一的溱潼会船节一年一度举行的地方，显然一年里除了会船的那天，浩淼的溱湖都很落寞。走马观花地转了溱湖国家湿地公园，顶着江苏首家国家级湿地公园，国家AAAA级景区，国家级珍稀动物麋鹿、丹顶鹤、扬子鳄栖息地的名号，其实也难副。不过姜堰宜居的环境倒是给我深刻印象。 七号是次典型的公路之旅。途经江阴，常州，武进，宜兴，最后是浙江的长兴。最先去的是很老套的江阴黄山湖公园，在武进前黄吃的午饭。一路上拍了不少照片。值得一提的位于宜兴湖父镇的竹海风景区，山青水秀，山水相依，山连山，峰接峰，满眼翠竹层峦叠翠。一望无际方圆几十多万亩的浩瀚毛竹，风光绝胜的竹海镜湖，还有凉亭小桥，幽廊古寺，沿途溪流淙淙，处处翠鸟声声，宛如世外桃源。驱车穿越竹的海洋在山路上蜿蜒，我不禁感慨这真是停车坐爱枫林晚的圣地。

got tired of using my old lenovo laptop these days,had been sticking with it for 4 years, anyway today is the first day i put my new Thinkpad T400 to use. feel amazingly comfortable working on this my new toy. just take a while to get accustomed to trackpoint and touchpad.

always busy, for money. always asks myself, is it meaningful to work for money? am i wasting my time if i don't get busy pursuing fame and fortune? Get busy living, or get busy dying, does it really make any sense?

Suddenly i felt like listening to one record, so i put it on. a little excited, a little nervous and so expected. even though i have listened to this record numerous times, i still have these mixed feelings. I crack open a beer, take a sip before i push the play button, listen to those tracks i could not be more familar with. each single rock buff should have been into 'unplugged in new york' and have been struck deeply inside. i end up reviewing this historic live album today.

Opening track 'About a Girl' grabbed audience attention instantaneously, i did sing this one a lot at college. 'Come as you are' retains the gloomy, flowing feel of its studio album version. 'Jesus Doesn't Want Me for a Sunbeam' is simply beautiful, both lyrically and musically, i am also very impressed with krist's accordion. 'The Man Who Sold The World' is a bowie's cover, kurt's version is melancholy reminisicent of bowies version. i used to play Pennyroyal Tea on my guitar a lot, what a classic and how can i forget 'Dumb''s line:I am not like them，But I can pretend. in which cello does a good part. polly is another standout ballad, and we all know what 'polly' is about. 'on a plain' lyrically documents a hard time in Cobains life, and he interpreted it melancholy, certainly an asset. Something In The Way is outstanding, and it also brings back memories, it was almost 13 years ago when i first listened to this sullen track. kurt covered 3 Meat Puppets''Plateau''Oh Me' and'Lake Of Fire' (these songs were on the subject of death, and we all know kurt shot himself a few months later), mostly notably lake of fire which is a slice of perfection. 'All Apologies' has an amazing guitar riff, another song i enjoy playing on my 6-string.

Here comes the closing track, "Where did you sleep last night", undoubtedly highlight of the show. the haunting scream that Kurt gave out during the final of the song is the best way of closing the live album.

Last but not least, another enjoyable part is his great sense of humour, bandmates' infectious grins and sincere interaction with audience.

Listen to a classic album, is not a waste of time, not getting busy dying either. in some aspects, it is one of the most meaningful things of life instead. i got it.

following is my translation of Zuoxiao Zuzhou's poetic, abstruse, obscure "peaceful boulevard"

There is a guy laying down on peaceful boulevard
Artificial teeth on the road and his mouth open
When u approach him
U Will find out he is different than what u imagine of him
He would not kiss u as it used to be
U feel something coming over to u
Not disenchantment, just sorrow

My dear friend , when u walk on peaceful boulevard
My bro says to me:
If a person feels sorrowful just go ahead to peaceful boulevard
If a person feels disenchanted just go ahead to peaceful boulevard

There is a grocery at the boulevard
Selling necessities , u squint your eyes
It is like u r smiling
Thus Many people acompany smiling
He spends 5 bucks for liquor at your grocery
And he gives u 5.5 bucks change casually
And says that u r his lover

My dear friends, when it was not a peaceful boulevard yet
My bro says to me:
If a person feels sorrowful just go ahead to peaceful boulevard
If a person feels disenchanted just go ahead to peaceful boulevard

there is a bar at peaceful boulevard
u go there often with eyes squinting
I pluck my guitar and sing to u:
“Chick, your daisy face
Really warm my mind
Your daisy face
Your daisy face
Your daisy face

My dear friends, when it was not peaceful boulevard yet
My bro says to me:
If a person feels sorrowful just go ahead to peaceful boulevard
If a person feels disenchanted just go ahead to peaceful boulevard

following is my translation of Zuoxiao Zuzhou's very bizarre 'conquer'

u put a standard smile upon your face

U look just like a “role model” idol

use the same expression to communicate with people

use the different tone to communicate with people

u cross your arm

U look just like a “role model” idol

U look like a pure maid with orchid-like face on the lawn of spring dusk

U look like a horny slut with big white ass on the boat of spring dusk

I love u, my heart belongs to u

I want to be with u

No one can replace u

In my heart

my translation of zuo xiao zu zhou's classic "i can not sit sadly by your side" which captivates me musically, and confuses me lyrically

you throw away the gun
I did not mention that I did not need that
I need it to shoot one person
on yesterday
i can not sit sadly by your side

when I push open that door,
just want to see the eternal glorified scene
they don’t have what they called “practical ladder”
and I can not sit sadly by your side

u brought back that guitar
I did not mention that I did not need that
I need it to accompany a song
on today
i can not sit sadly by your side

when I walk into that door
rip off page 252 from some book
it goes:
i can not sit sadly by your side

my translation of Xu Wei's "Warmth" which he wrote for his wife

Verse:
I sit in my room
Flipping your pictures
Bringing back the memories of Dali,

The sun is shining bright
The sky is blue
and the mountain is so green,

I love the blue Er Sea
Spotted with white sails
My heart dances along

Under the golden twilight
above the green grass
your smile warms me

bridge :
I love the campfire of Lijiang
We sing and dance, happily and simply.
I love the starry night
The angle passes by.
your soft whisper in my arms
still echoes.

CHORUS:
those warmth r still in my heart
Accompanying me through all these tough days.
U make my heavy heart
Feeling so light ,so light, so light

my translation of Xu Wei's "Sea Monster",

The winter is full of sunshine
But I was completely baffled
I hear you song swaying in the wind

U stand in the center of river
I indulge myself with idle daydream
U push me falling into water
My long hair would never be filthy
this temptation entices me
this song fascinates me
but I am always reluctant to leave the scene of bank behind

CHORUS:
there is no sunshine in this summer
I still stand on the bank of river.
The river is stagnant
still water runs deep.
I hear no your song
when the wind howls.
I see no your shadow
when dream about you is gone.
I have no idea what stalwart is
I have no idea what sadness is
I always have no direction home.